Welcome TeenageInsider!
Looking at your avitar and mine, we might be related...2nd cousins? LoL
I am so happy, that at 17, you are questioning the "Beliefs" of the religion you were born and brought up in. (As an aside, that is what we tell Catholics, Buddists etc. to do. Don't just believe because it is the Family Religion. Ask questions, do research).
There is such a wealth of knowledge, to be gleamed from this site. Possibly, some questions, you have, have been throughally researched and posted already.
I started reading here after I first read Crisis of Conscience by Ray Franz. I also was doing research, at the same time, on Ancestry.com and to my at first utter disbelief when I looked up Rutherford, US census reports had him residing of course, at Bethel but also with his mistress at Beth Sarem, his millionaire property in San Diego. Whaaaatttttt? He's the President of the WTB&TS and even HE doesn't believe in what he preaches. Why should you?
Thank goodness for the computer.
Just Lois